In this exercise, I am taking forward my thought from exercise 1 and 2 to further develop them.
Taking the recent experience I had with my late mother-in-law, I want to explore these feelings that I am having. Perhaps it will appear as insensitive to some, being so close to her death; but for me I think this is a good time to work out my mixed feelings and be able to (mentally at least)make full peace with my mother-in-law. I would like to be in a place where I can forget the unpleasantness and remember the happy times and perhaps as a result be able to make peace with other members of my wife’s family, who I currently feel are responsible our conflict and my mother-in-law’s sad early death.
Below is the handwritten notes that I have made to try to thrash-out my ideas on paper.
I first looked up the meanings of grief, love and hate in an Oxford Dictionary:
Grief – Intense sorrow. Trouble or annoyance.
Grieve – Feeling of intense sorrow. Cause great distress to.
Love – Strong feelings of affection. Like very much. A great interest and pleasure in something.
Hate – Feel very strong dislike for..
Hateful – Very unkind or unpleasant.
Hatred – Very strong hate.
An examination on the feelings of grief and how it can affect you; your perceptions; your reflections.
An examination of the emotion of love against hate. How love and hate can be closely related with a co-dependency.
Idea one – Grief
Feelings connected with grief: Guilt, sadness, loss, emptiness, nostalgia, self-pity, loneliness, fear, anger.
Ideas for photographic elements
Old photos and snap-shots both formal and informal, footage from old cine-film or video or fabricated footage made to look like old cine-film or video of happier times. An empty chair, ECU of tearful eyes. A flashback to an argument. An image of someone alone, perhaps standing and appearing to be moving in real-time whilst the world around moves at a faster speed unaware of the person it passes by to create an impression of loneliness.